Do you ever come home at night feeling really stupid? Like maybe you did something, or didn't do something...maybe you said something that sounded super funny in your head but ended up being really rude, or maybe you kept saying you were going to talk to someone you thought was cute but never actually ended up talking to that person...
If you're anything like me you know what I'm talking about. For me it's the boy at church that I just can't seem to talk to, even though I walk by him alone four times each Sunday, or maybe you just love your best guy friend so much that the only way you know how to show him is by being mean to him and then you just fight all the time because maybe you both feel the same way or maybe you both really do hate each other...
I know there's something I can do about it. But it just hurts when I find out they all went to FHE and didn't call me even though I coulda called them first, or even when Azn boy was there they didn't call either...I mean, they know I like him even though I say I'm over him all the time...I don't really like him...
I end up acting like a big dumb baby all the time. I know where I stand on very few issues and my head feels like a rubix cube. I love him, I don't love him, I hate you, I don't hate you, we have nothing in common, we have everything in common, I'm going to talk to azn boi, I'm over azn boi...you see what i mean now huh...
Two things are for sure. I miss my friends is the first one, all of them, even the ones here in Walnut Creek since we never call each other anymore, and number two, I am talking to him this Sunday because it's not going to kill me and I'm not going to catch some horrible disease and I really can't make that bigga fool outta myself and even if I do which actually is possible knowing me I will just laugh it off like I always do because that's the type of girl I am, the I-don't-give-a-damn-what-anyone-thinks-of-me-as-long-as-I'm-happy girl. That's who I like.
It's funny that I'm only really happy like how I used to be before Sloan when I'm with him, that good ol' friend of mine, that one I fight with all the time allthetimeneverendingfightsandyellingandlove...
xoxo L
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
Monday, July 26, 2004
summer song
most of you don't know this, but my favourite colour is brown.
most of you do know this, and my most favorite person in the whole wide world is jorje buissons. j/k. most of ya'll prob don't know what that means anyway.
i am going to utah this week. can you believe it? i'm going just to go. it's soooooo dumb. but i guess i'm excited to see my friends who are there right now.
i have to go to work soon. i really don't wanna.
one month til i go back to school. it's crazy.
i made a pact with myself that i would talk to azn boi at church yesterday, and then i didn't. i had a good reason. maybe i'll tell ya later. all i know is that i don't care anymore because four weeks is not good enough to have a relationship in. short and sweet hurts like helllllllllllllllllllllll.
my blog entries are really dumb, aren't they?
i stopped drinking caffeine. sort of. i just had a coke. but i'm down to like, one or two a day, except today i might have to make it three because i haven't been sleeping at all lately.
my favorite song ever is called "outta reach" and it's by the band she. it's an amazing song. everyone dl it or listen to it somehow.
i'm going to utah!!
xoxo lisaloolaaleee............................mom is gone!! i miss her though...
and oh yeah. i got up late on saturday, like ten am, to find that my dog had been stolen! not really, she went to boot camp again, but i dint get to say goodbye and now i really really miss her. <3>
most of you do know this, and my most favorite person in the whole wide world is jorje buissons. j/k. most of ya'll prob don't know what that means anyway.
i am going to utah this week. can you believe it? i'm going just to go. it's soooooo dumb. but i guess i'm excited to see my friends who are there right now.
i have to go to work soon. i really don't wanna.
one month til i go back to school. it's crazy.
i made a pact with myself that i would talk to azn boi at church yesterday, and then i didn't. i had a good reason. maybe i'll tell ya later. all i know is that i don't care anymore because four weeks is not good enough to have a relationship in. short and sweet hurts like helllllllllllllllllllllll.
my blog entries are really dumb, aren't they?
i stopped drinking caffeine. sort of. i just had a coke. but i'm down to like, one or two a day, except today i might have to make it three because i haven't been sleeping at all lately.
my favorite song ever is called "outta reach" and it's by the band she. it's an amazing song. everyone dl it or listen to it somehow.
i'm going to utah!!
xoxo lisaloolaaleee............................mom is gone!! i miss her though...
and oh yeah. i got up late on saturday, like ten am, to find that my dog had been stolen! not really, she went to boot camp again, but i dint get to say goodbye and now i really really miss her. <3>
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
i'll stop the world i'll melt with you damnit
i can't stop won't stop don't stop the beat i c-c-c-can't control my feet....i can't stop cussin. little sissy keeps giving me the lectures bless her stinkin heart.
dad, kimba, rob, mike, kt going camping tomorrow yay! mom and me home alone. how will it go?! no one knows...it might be boring. and austin's going too.
last night i went to sf and it was sooooo fun. went to the pier and talked to jeffy, saw a dumb ol wannabe bushman (hella lame) then to chinatown and union square and through pacific heights and gg park and everywhere! it was sooooooo fun. got good stuff at chinatown asian wholesale liquidation flea market yayayayayy!
saw sloany pie pie at the rasputin's...no big deal except that i've avoided that place since i got back from school (yesterday was my first time since i've been back) and of course he's walking in as i'm walking out. he has a beard. i really like it. the irony's killing me.
three new cd's tonite..all microphones albums -- they are so chill.
i'm not making sense yo!
britt called today! and michelle! it was a wonderful day for BYU. and i got a letter from forest! yesssssssssssssssssssss
aight i'm out. it's only 11:34 but i'm so tired and i wanna go to fairfield tomorrow and see my darling michella bella.
btw i'm still in love with my asian boi michael <3<3<3 but that never changes. i obsess faster than you can say calvin klein and before you even realize i have a new obsession i'm over it. no complaints. it keeps me steady.....
love love love,
lisa
dad, kimba, rob, mike, kt going camping tomorrow yay! mom and me home alone. how will it go?! no one knows...it might be boring. and austin's going too.
last night i went to sf and it was sooooo fun. went to the pier and talked to jeffy, saw a dumb ol wannabe bushman (hella lame) then to chinatown and union square and through pacific heights and gg park and everywhere! it was sooooooo fun. got good stuff at chinatown asian wholesale liquidation flea market yayayayayy!
saw sloany pie pie at the rasputin's...no big deal except that i've avoided that place since i got back from school (yesterday was my first time since i've been back) and of course he's walking in as i'm walking out. he has a beard. i really like it. the irony's killing me.
three new cd's tonite..all microphones albums -- they are so chill.
i'm not making sense yo!
britt called today! and michelle! it was a wonderful day for BYU. and i got a letter from forest! yesssssssssssssssssssss
aight i'm out. it's only 11:34 but i'm so tired and i wanna go to fairfield tomorrow and see my darling michella bella.
btw i'm still in love with my asian boi michael <3<3<3 but that never changes. i obsess faster than you can say calvin klein and before you even realize i have a new obsession i'm over it. no complaints. it keeps me steady.....
love love love,
lisa
Sunday, July 11, 2004
solitaire
so my cousin's here from oregon. austin, age 14. what a whippersnapper. he's one of the coolest, funniest kids i've ever met.
me--working my arse off, as usual. spent a great day in the city yesterday for hannah's birthday. so much fun.
bad episode with the dog today....i can't stand her anymore.
going back to school in a month and a half or so. still have no place to live. still don't have my schedule figured out. damn it i just don't care, although i am getting more excited to go back and have a great year like i promised myself. i miss my friends. especially my oregon friends. <3
put bubbles in the il fornaio fountain for the first (and last) time last night with sam. soooooo fun.
went to the singles ward today for church--first time. fell in love with the only asian there. named michael. had on an amazing sweater vest.
free slurpees at 7-11 today so i'm out.......<3<3<3<3 lisa
me--working my arse off, as usual. spent a great day in the city yesterday for hannah's birthday. so much fun.
bad episode with the dog today....i can't stand her anymore.
going back to school in a month and a half or so. still have no place to live. still don't have my schedule figured out. damn it i just don't care, although i am getting more excited to go back and have a great year like i promised myself. i miss my friends. especially my oregon friends. <3
put bubbles in the il fornaio fountain for the first (and last) time last night with sam. soooooo fun.
went to the singles ward today for church--first time. fell in love with the only asian there. named michael. had on an amazing sweater vest.
free slurpees at 7-11 today so i'm out.......<3<3<3<3 lisa
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